Loss

Losing someone is so hard. No matter how much you knew them or they meant to you. I lost a beloved uncle last night. It was a roller coaster of emotion for my family. Before we got to the hospital, his heart stopped and his kidneys were failing.. They were able to bring him back. And I was at the hospital all day with my family. About 8 at night.. Code blue sounded through the halls and my aunt went into a hysterical mode. I sat with her while she cried. The doctor came in and said they brought him back but they wanted to take him off of life support.. Her and my cousin wanted to wait for her other son who left before anything ever balls med to go get his kids from his ex wife.. He was the closest to his father.. About 20 minutes.. Another code blue went off.. And they called him.. I called my family down in Kentucky and cried so hard to them, strangers were giving me hugs in the hallway.. Then all my family's prayers were answered for a bit.. A miracle the doctors have never seen happened. My uncle brought himself baxk.. But he was still unresponsive. It was another hour we had hope.. Until the last code blue went off.. We knew that it was the end.. My aunt and cousin told the doctors no more.. My heart is so heavy with grief.. I've lost close people before.. But not like this.. I was never there.